Metanoia

January.  There are people everywhere who wait till January to start changing things and starting something new. Whether it be their looks, hair,diet, habits, manners, hobbies, etc. They wait till the new start of the year to start. “New year, new me.” Today is the fourth day of the month. I woke up on Jan. 1st feeling no different that I did the day before..

For the year of 2015, I decided that I wouldn’t be making resolutions, but more of goals to myself. I want to strive to do those goals to the best of my abilities and not punish myself. I also didn’t want to start on the first of the month. Why don’t I start on a Monday?

Today at church, a word that I always hear but never quite understood was pointed out. Metanoia.

met·a·noi·a

ˌmetəˈnoiə/

noun

1. change in one’s way of life resulting from penitence or spiritual conversion.

And it was an eye opening. It was a word that made me want to change me.

Before the year started, I knew 2015 was going to be a big year. A game changer.

It would be the year where I venture off from my community college and transfer into a uni. It would be the year where I would be learning how to drive, and heck, even get over my fear of driving…

It would be the year where I want to have the courage to toss away the old, and venture on into new. Start everything from scratch.

I want to better myself.

First of all, as a Christian. I feel like I have lost my way from the Lord’s Word even before my Mum passed away. I found it again, but lost it. I’m not proud of what I have been doing as a Christian. I had become materialistic, overly selfish and worldly.

Secondly, I started eating horribly….

Thirdly, I had become lazy and “tired” when I wasn’t…

It had to stop. So for 2015, I made goals to better myself. And one of those goals is to be consistent with what I post online.

 I want to better myself. I want to be proud of who I’ll be at the end of the year, but also after the year ends and on to the future.

IT’S NOT GOING TO BE AN EASY ROAD. It will take dedication and small progress.

But I know that I have it in me.

So, here it goes…

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